Settling in...

I'm writing this entry during a little break from editing. I'm busy cutting a segment for a pilot episode for a T.V show that I've helped to produce. As I've been humming along these past few hours, alone in the studio , I've been been thinking about where I'm at and getting a little clearer picture.

See, I've spent much time in prayer and contemplation lately, trying to figure out how to best spend my time doing what it is I love to do (and pay the bills), and really get to the bottom of what God wants me to do with my passions. I've kind of been in a vacuum of discovery for the last few months, and while I've grown thru the process, I've found myself very busy figuring out where my niche is in this crazy business of entertainment. Like, really busy. I've been working really hard, but the question I've been asking myself these past few hours is this: Have I been working smart?

The problem for me is this... I love to work. (esp. in T.V. and film) and I've been working the last few months on projects that have definitely expanded my skill set, increased my knowledge and given me a far better understanding of how this crazy business works. And now I've got figure out how I'm gonna work in this crazy business, and, as I said above, honour God by doing what I'm supposed to be doing.
I'm getting better at editing, but I don't love it. I'm getting better at figuring out tech-y stuff, but I don't love it. I'm getting better at settling for work that takes up my time, I don't love it. I want passion. I want what God wants. I know this isn't gonna happen over night, but if I'm honest with myself, which I'm trying to be here, I better start finding ways to spend more time working at getting better at what it is I love to do.
I better get back to work.